Blog. Well, here we are celebrating the last few weeks before the first semester is over! Plus, Thanksgiving break is next week! I am so excited for a break, because I’m going to Florida and I can’t wait to eat actual food! After break are exams! That is so crazy that we are already through first semester, I feel so old. My sister is also turning 21 this weekend, which is scary because we used to make fun of our other sister when she turned 21; we used to call her old. Life goes by way too fast; it needs to stop going so fast. I want to enjoy it, but sometimes I feel like I’m not. Like what have I really done with my life in the past 18 years? I have no idea. I have gone to school and that’s about it. I go to school, work all summer and then do it all over again. I’m going to do the same thing this summer because all my new friends are going back home. What are you supposed to do if all your friends leave, where does that leave me? Does this sound selfish? I don’t know how I did it for the past 5 years of my life. I need to find a group of people that won’t leave me in the end. I never have felt like someone truly likes me for me, I always feel like I’m the odd ball. People change, and I hate that. I used to have great friends and then we all changed into different people and it makes me angry. I used to have the best guy friend that I could have, he was great. Once he got into drugs and alcohol, and I went the other way and we never talked ever again. I want to still be best friends with him, but it’s too late now. I can’t be his friends because I don’t like the person he has turned into.
On another note, I have officially made my Christmas list. It took me forever to write down what I would like. I go through the whole year pointing out things that I would like to have and then when Christmas time comes around I totally forget. But I am fairly confident in my list right now, and it’s not like I asked for a lot. I love Christmas time because everyone is always so happy and it’s the season for giving which is the best season of all! I am also excited for going home and spending the time with my family. It’s going to be weird living at home again because I’m so used to the dorms now, but I also miss showering in my own shower. Why are the dorm showers so gross? They need new curtains because the ones on our floor are not big enough for the stall, and they have holes in them! Gross!
So I went to go look at apartments today and I think we have found the perfect place. It’s so hard to look for a place to live especially when you have to look a year ahead of time. I don’t know what I want a year from now, how am I supposed to decide that now? It was so hard to actually find someone to live with because it’s not like I know a lot of people. It’s hard to meet someone for a month and then decide that they are the right person for you to live with. Lauren’s parents decided that they didn’t want her to live off campus, so that’s a bummer. Stupid drunk girl!!! Gah! Well, it’s okay. We are okay with living in a two bedroom; more room for the both of us! I was just looking at two different places and now I can’t decide where to live. The one place is more expensive but it’s new and has a pool and a gym. The other place doesn’t have anything and it’s not as expensive. What am I supposed to do!?
Well study time for chemistry, wish me luck. I hope I don’t fail this last test. I hate chemistry.
Until next time,
Melissa